So, right, yes, I has absolutely 100% CHOSEN to have those experiences that I had through my life......I chose the Dark Side! What I didn't have was a Lighter Side to balance out the Dark!! My 'goto' default button was dark and twisty! Alcohol didn't help either! lol It amplified it BIG time!!!! I spent many years believing I was a victim of my circumstances and struggling AGAINST the very thing I had chosen - kinda weird - huh!?
And then, once I chose a different path (one of NOT being like my parents were, when I had my son) I went the complete opposite end of the scale!! - striving for 'enlightenment', (rainbows & unicorns!) through a quite extreme Yoga practice.....furiously 'working on it' - gave up smoking, coffee & (for a short time!) alcohol - trying sooo hard to be 'good'! Ring a bell??? hahaha Back to square one!!! Choosing Light over Dark didn't work either! During this part of my journey, I ended up in the mindset that there was something very wrong with me, because those Dark bits would show through regularly (usually induced by alcohol or feelings of inadequacy!) and explode in a cacophony of anger, frustration and shoutiness!!! Why??? Because I had gone from choosing Dark to choosing Light, when in actual fact what I really needed was a balance between the two!! Embrace BOTH sides of myself to TRULY move forward!!
For me, that journey really began with being on the stage - it helped me to confront my paralyzing fears and move around them - and progressed through training to be a Yoga Teacher (BIG mircoscope on my life!!) to just a few short years ago when I began to entertain the idea of FULLY embracing my inner Witch (helped in no small part by my partner Ian and my other teacher Andrea Hess and Soul Realignment!)......of not being afraid to look under the stones, to look inside the dark cupboard, to see what needs to been seen, to unravel what our perception says is 'normal'. I'm not saying that it's a finished journey.....my god and goddess.......absolutely NOT, for we are ever-learning and growing as beings of Light & Dark! But I see myself very differently from how I used to......I know that there are Up Days, Down Days, Fantastically Amazing Days and Frustrating as Heck Days! And by fearlessly embracing it all, being brave in the face of adversity, we grow and move forward on our Path Of Witchcraft!
So...I hear you ask....how does this Light & Dark manifest itself on my Witchy Path now??? Tune in for Part Three tomorrow and find out!!!
xxxLight and Dark Blessings Fellowsxxx
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