So....El Squeaky! The voice that ruins it......if you let it!!
My empowered self now knows that I am the powerful creator of EVERYTHING I have ever done/experienced.....yeeeehaaaaw! However, that was not always the case!!
The squeaky ruled my head, with an iron fist! I was the Queen of self-sabotage - if I could find a way to mess things up completely, then I would find it! Obviously, it wasn't like that 24/7, but I definitely had an alarm - like a siren - and I would hit that big button....regularly! Alcohol fuelled it...BIG time, even when I left the drugs behind me, alcohol was still a HUGE part of my life. I couldn't quite let go of the idea that it gave me confidence! I was always in fear of something (I talk about this in my earlier blog posts) and was, in my eyes, a victim of my life! Ten years working in a factory was a doubled-edged sword too - made me grow up fast but at the same time it fed the squeaky! Because everyone had an opinion about what I 'should' be doing!! There was one person I remember who worked in that factory, though, who got me and helped me to calm the squeaky, and it was her inspiration which created the 'man with the broom in my head'. It helped....a lot. There was still a huge pile of crap in my head and it took years to sweep it out - having a child helped that process!! - but I had a plan!!
I remember when I left all of that behind...the factory...my home....my friends, I left it to seek something new - no fear there because I wanted it and nothing was gonna stop me! so, hindsight tells me that I have that drive when I want it! If it's something I want with all my heart I will move mountains to get it! Which is what it felt like to finally get squeaky to shut the fuck up! Like moving a mountain 'I can movemovemove any mountain...dododododododododo......' there's a blast from the past!
How did I manage to get squeaky to submit? By *knowing that I created squeaky....like I created the man with the broom...like I created every single thing which happened to me....like I created the victim I played.....like I am NOW creating this me! In the absolute knowing that I made that there is infinite power! The power to create anything! Anything at all! Good, bad, indifferent! Ok, so knowing is empowering? Yep! How do you keep that frame of mind? That mindset? Good question, because days, weeks, months and years are not all the same...they change, we change and so does the Mother Earth!
I have to say, from my own personal experience, when that* realisation hit me it was massive and it hasn't gone away - when I had my Soul Realignment reading it unearthed things which explained everything which had happened in this lifetime and why I had chosen the things I had chosen, and I haven't looked back! To the point where I am now creating an online course in Witchcraft!!! Holy cow! Stepping into my empowered self, despite any doubt which might surface, despite the distant voice of squeaky which occasionally pipes up, is an incredibly amazing experience and I am not letting any voice, person, place or thing take that feeling away! I have even stopped drinking! I don't need it anymore! It's been (just had to count on my fingers there) 7 months!!
And that is why myself and Ian decided to create the online courses in Witchcraft ....because it empowers YOU! And we are passionate about it!! By helping to empower people, we empower the world...to think for themselves, to be the very most amazing them that they can be!
Bright Yuletide Blessings to you and yours!