or......."oh, I'm not like that anymore" vs "oh, i've always been like that"
It's the windy city here in Dartford this morning!! The winds of change are a-blowin'!
Sat here with my coffee this morning - not proper coffee as I've run out!, but instant (not Nescaf I hasten to add, as I have thrown no money in their direction since the early 90's when I found out about their third world shenanigans!!).........Just sitting here watching the trees dancing in the wind :) I was told this morning that I've changed :) In a good way, not in a psychopathic, "now you're such a crazy bitch" type way, but in a good way!! Always good to hear!!
The winds of change......hated by some, loved by others, I have never really been a fan of change, not really, not if I'm honest! I used to say I was adaptable and loved change, but being now older and wiser, I know I do not relish it! However (and yes, I did italicize and underline that word!!) somewhere, on my Witchcraft Path I have dropped my fear!! Literally, walking along, minding my own business and it fell out of my pocket! Geeeez, I hope no-one picks it up and takes it home....it was bloody heavy!!!
Witchcraft is pure LOVE, yes, that's it....it IS PURE LOVE!!! I love it and it loves me - now that I have stepped into that aspect of myself. See, for years I was so scared, scared of what people would think about me being a witch, scared that they would poke fun, scared of my own power as a witch, scarfed (huh?? scarfed????), scared, scared, scared, scared!!! Oh my bloody god!!!To be on the other side of that now, it's incredible to think I spent the best part of my life being scared - even when I was doing things I loved (acting, singing, riding my bike) that fear was still there - the biggest one was being accepted by people :)
And now? Well I have it on good authority that whereas I used to say "Oh, I've always been like that" I now say "Oh my god! I'm not like that anymore!" WOW!
And, I have to say, that has been my Witchy path! Look at Nature....is she scared? She just gets on with it, does her thing, turns The Wheel and gives her all. She just IS.
And through the (sometimes) damn hard slog of the fierce work done on myself to be ME and not what society, family and the world think I should (hate that word!!) be/think/feel/do there have been times when I would rather not do the work, but then...I would still be that person craving acceptance and not doing what I LOVE. Even the video I posted yesterday is a HUGE deal for me, as I would (in the past) never have done that.....exposed myself (metaphysically/emotionally/spiritually) in that way!!!
So, all you folks out there, be brave! Do something everyday (big or small) which challenges you!! And makes you say to yourself " OMG! I can't believe I just did that!!!"
Celebrating with a cup 'a' coffee!!
Happy Venus day!!
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